In that movie called. …“I”…
A Living Master ?
I read on “Sannyas” news this funny comment: “I need deconditioning from sannyas conditionings, perhaps I should try ‘family constellation therapy’ to see why I belong to this dysfunctional crazy crowd of individual freaks. It must be my grandfather’s fault.”
Of course our grandfathers were at fault and we have to love and hate them for that. Because it happened; That’s all, and there is no more than that….. We don’t own life.
If we look around, not any living creature on this planet owns life. Life owns us, all of us and every cell and thought of us. So let’s behave in accordance with that. Don’t deny what love is, but neither don’t deny what suffering is. Both colours make the painting. Only one colour makes life ugly and really boring. The depths of love you learn in the struggle, rarely in the hug. Accept life, and enjoy being part of it by living who you are, and just learn from that.
That’s also why cults don’t work. They think they can control life by suppressing parts of it. There is no cult on this planet that accepts life as it is. Oshoites, Christians, Muslims, Buddhist, they all try to make that new perfect being or whatever. Just by mutilating life..
I suspect that life plays a trick on us. We have to think that life is about us and that we are the only star in that movie called. …“I”…
When we go inside, what do we find: Normal-“I’s”, Spiritual-“I-s”, I don have a Ego-“I’s”, Criminal “I’s”, I’m de master-“I’s”, I’m not an I-“I’s”, Enlightened-“I’s”, Beyond enlightenment –“I’s”, Suffering-“I‘s. I help you “I’s”, I feel lonely-“I’s I don believe you-“I’s”. All these I’s have one simple thing in common: me me me.
It is probably a trick of life that animals like us have to think this way, and I must say it has some logic. Awaking in the morning we all have to solve that one and only problem: Where do …“I”… get my first coffee today? And nobody can suppress the split second aversion when this coffee is not there. We need all kind of tricks to avoid, that we beat someone up for that. Kids normally say: “You have to die”. That’s honest. We just think it… or even worse, we become Oshoites, Christians or what so ever to repress or to fly from it…
Love and hate is just the way life is. We are part of that. So feel: feel stupid, proud, be sad, love, hate and be relaxed about it. Show hate in love and love in hate. Accept that we are involuntary programmable robots on this 3.5 billion year old merry go round.
Our granddads did what ever they had to do and that’s okay by me. They also had no choice and that programmed us. This is it. There is no other story.
This is it. . There is no delete switch in the brain, which accepts or suppresses the story. And remember nobody will love “you”, because you simply aren’t there. So breathe slowly… relax and love - and show your feelings of reprisal. We need contact to be alive and learn.
We have to love and hate granddad and if not, we end up as that lonely empty cockroach in the woods, happily eaten by the ants. Ants are always happy. Being social they surely are part of some cult, you know. But … when there is a living master… ….. …..
Vigyano (Michiel) Dorenbosch, Netherlands.